I hope that whoever reading this on either side of the debate love and accept themselves, That they follow their guts, And that they find love and happiness. Love, The real soulful, Passionate and sincere love, Came to us much later. We are engaged to be married this year and the love that I feel for him now was erected from that initial gut feeling that he was right. Again, To keep the story short, Alex and I found our places in life and we are working to nurture the foundation that our journey together, And apart, Have built for us. So, I fell in love with myself, Took care of myself, And I became strong. Like Sam Smith's song, Every time he hurt me, The less I cried, And I learned that to be able to love someone as much as I thought I loved Alex, I needed to love and accept myself first. We were opposites in every way while we were learning and so he broke my heart not once, Not twice, But three times over the course of 10 years.
He was a young man learning his place in the world, As much as I was a young woman learning my place. The brick that he was hurt me so badly it felt like dying and heart stopping. To make a long story short, I listened to my gut and learned that Alex was definitely more like a brick than a white knight.
This made me a gullible romantic, Holding on to the hopes of white knights on unicorns etc. My culture dictates that I have to bring honor to my family by focusing on my education and make good money to provide for my parents as they have sacrificed for my success. At the time, I was very inexperienced with relationships and dating. At first glance, That gut feeling hit me like the proverbial ton of bricks, Crashing on me loudly and forebodingly. I am 33 years old, And I met Alex when I was 21 in a college course. This has to do with your gut (and in many ways emotional intelligence). Yes, Attraction has a lot to do with it, But there are many attractive people in the world and we all aren't in love with them. A lot of people think that love at first sight happens because the other person is attractive. Love at first sight is NOT actually falling head over heals with someone you just met, Rather it is a gut feeling that tells you that you and the person you're looking at will go on a journey together if you choose to listen and run with it.
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